Dec. 20, day 14
I'm learning quickly that some days are better than others. Today was not one of the better ones. I've had a lot of time to myself on the road just thinking about everything: Our life together, the plans we had that will no longer include him, things the kids will miss out on by not having him around, Papa gone for the grandbabies, and all the things we did together that will never happen again.
Little things remind me of him because it was the everyday little things that created out life together. Texts through the day, calls just to say hi, going to sleep together, waking up together, watching TV and high fiving when the Chiefs or Cards score, our many inside jokes, just everything.
To say I miss him is really an understatement. We were so melded together that it is like having to figure out how to survive as one half of a whole. I know I've said it before, but I was one of the lucky ones to have found my soulmate, my true love, my other half.
I still feel his presence, and I know there are skeptics who will not believe me, but until you have had unexplained experiences such as my kids and I have had in the last 12 days, you'll never understand it. Just because you don't believe in something doesn't mean it isn't true.
Until we meet again...