One Month, 4 Days - January 10, 2020
I'm just over a month out, and most of the calls and texts have stopped. That's actually okay because I think I'm at a point where I have to figure out how to live on my own, without him. So many say, "I'm here for you" "I'll always be there for you" or something similar. But the truth is, before he died it was just me and him, and it will just be me in the end since everyone else has to go back to their own lives. I need to do this on my own.
I've never lived alone before. I had my first child young, and was always either married (first or second time) or raising kids. Kids are all grown, so after starting out with 5 kids between us almost 21 years ago, we finally had the house to ourselves for the fi
rst time ever. It definitely brought out the younger versions of ourselves! We thought we would have so much more time...now here I am, with all the time in the world, without my best friend, my partner in crime, my soulmate.
So, for now, I'm just the earthly half of us with him as my spirit guide...